Well Hello there.

I should introduce myself. Hey I'm courtney. but I'd really rather know who you are and how you got here. I hope life is going ok for you, but I get it if it's not. Life can really hand us some dark times along the way. This blog isn't going to be some preachy place or a bunch of positive platitudes, but maybe something might crack a smile or at the very least, you'll know there's an actual human being (hi, me again) writing this. Another thing this blog won't be is an SEO goldmine written by ChatGPT or any other AI tool. Personally, I don't love the idea of creating "content". Is content really the best thing to be creating? I'm not convinced of that. The term just comes off as content = filler = something used for some boring purpose that's not really worth our time. Also they say content is meant to be "consumed". ok, ew. not really into that either. Maybe that's not a fair take on content, but it seems so un-aspiring and un-inspiring.

So now that we're somewhat clear on what it's not, here's a few thoughts on what it will be. A place to hold my collected and random thoughts on life as I know it so far, starting over b/c I've done that quite a few times already, and a space to highlight musicians, artists, and creative stuff that's making me happy.

Me - Courtney, currently living in Florida but this was a bit of a lark/adventure to get my husband back to the water. I grew up in Nashville and lived a bunch of my life in Atlanta, which is where I consider home. I've had 2 careers so far, one in live music/event production and one in coaching/healing arts. Some people think those are wildly different things, and they can be, but there are common threads of the sacred, the healing, the creative, and the community that just make sense to me and aren't so far apart as they might seem. I veer back and forth between my 2 careers, sometimes it feels purposeful and graceful and sometimes it feels awkward and like I'm going backwards. Recently I've had less of those 'wtf am I actually doing?' thoughts and just more gratitude for the choices and who knows, I could have a 3rd career right around the corner.

What I'm really spinning on right now is the feeling that it's action that carries the weight of Fate, and by that I mean that sometimes I get so caught up in trying to decide the right next thing and I get lost in all the thoughts and possibilities, but what really matters is to be thoughtful for a moment, and then to make a choice. It's spinning in the contemplation and non-action that creates the quicksand and inertia, and that's a real spirit-killer. So maybe if you're reading this and you have a big decision to make, please consider that it's more important to make a choice and take some imperfect action vs. everything hinging on the next step being this all important do or die decision. I say this as a perfectionist-in-recovery so I am admittedly not great at this, but I have spend far too long in the wallowing indecision and that royally sucks so I'm trying to get better at this.

You know, now that I type this I'm thinking of how often I make spontaneous decisions and how that usually works out for me. That spontaneity though is always accompanied by some knowing/feeling/intuition/Big Sign and that makes all the difference for me in making choices. It's when I feel totally lost and unguided that I get whiny and stuck. This blog is actually part of me coming out of a period of whiny stuckness and relaunching my coaching/healing work. So thank you for being here and being a part of this, it means more than you know.

Click here for the next blog about remembering our spark even when we're hurting.